Real Talk

Paris. it was fun while it lasted, but it didn't feel like my home, I felt like a tourist, & Nelson was my tour guide, but usually I would rather be on vacation then be at home anyway. Maybe I felt like a tourist because I was to scared to get up & read something. Maybe it was because i always posted Sunday night. Maybe because sometimes I slept in just because I didn't feel like pretending I was creative. But I had fun and I just wanna say thank you Paris, thank you Nelson & thank you everyone that did think of this as home, you made it enjoyable & you have inspired me to make an effort to find my Paris. 

I remember

I remember when my brother taught me the F word. He told me to say fluck without the L. I remember when me and my siblings covered ourselves from head to toe in marker. I remember the time Alex broke my wrist. I remember my first true best friend, and my second. I remember my first phone. I hated that thing. I remember when I finally held my handstand for 20 seconds and got 5$. I remember September 14th & April 20th. I remember the two times I've seen my dad cry. I remember our first kiss. I remember when no one could come between us, now everyone does. I remember camping in the two person tent, worst sleep I've ever gotten. I remember the box fort me and Becca Valletta made - we didn't come out for a week. I remember lake Powell. I remember when I got an email without my parents knowing and I was so scared. I remember the drive in movie. I remember when I caught my first fish. I remember when I got to go in a hot air balloon. I remember when you called me on my birthday, I cried, & the only two hugs you've ever given me, I cried. I remember the ugly fashion shows. I remember Hawaii, Michigan, Arkansas, Canada, Vegas, New Mexico and all the other trips I've been on this year. I remember making it to the top of Timp in my heelys, when i made my free throws to win the game, I remember the hellos and the goodbyes, I remember the day we really met for the first time, & then I remember yesterday.

@nettieluella

Amber (Nettie Luella),

You are so talented, 

& your blog is so real & absolutely amazing! 

I'm sorry I didn't finish this earlier, it took me longer then I thought it would. 

But I hope it turned out alright. 

(also I just wanna take a moment & say so sorry for your someone else page cause I probably ruined your entire journal)

black out

I'm trying to do the right thing. But no one cares
and who knows if anyone ever will

u r just a little less than perfect
but thats perfect to me

he's perfect
but he will never know I think that 

Beware, falling has a story

vincent may?

I love people who a can make me laugh and hate people seeing me cry

I am so unattached from the world its starting to scare my parents

I look up to my best friend more then she will ever know

I love long deep talks with people I care about

I twitch when I sleep, & its really embarrassing 

My biggest pet peeve is when people touch my nose 

I over think everything  

I hate driving but I love long drives

I love pictures but i hate pictures of myself

Ive cried in just about every single movie I've ever watched but I can't help it 

Its been a long couple years but its starting to get better

I love spontaneous trips, but I don't go on enough 

I love my hair but hate everything else about myself

I could watch the sky from sunset to sunrise and not get bored 

The earth just makes pretty things and I'm thankful for it 

I realized I took the class more to read and hear other people's thoughts and poems, not to be a better writer 

Sorry for my depressing posts but, 

thank you for still reading it

Sorry for not commenting on your post even though it hit home and made me cry till i fell asleep but, 

thank you for making me feel things I never knew I could feel from a blog post

Sorry if I'm about to disappoint you for who I actually am 

Thank you, all of you ♡,

Kayla Harley 

revealing a bit of myself

a song(s) from my childhood: year 3000 & electric feel
a song that reminds me of my most recent ex-boyfriend: your ex-lover is dead
a song that reminds me of my parents: the best day
a song that calms me down: lost boy
a song that is stuck in my head a lot: 2 heads
the song I last heard: jealous
a song that reminds me of my best friend: fame is for assholes
a song that reminds me of my "first love": you're the one i want
a song that makes me laugh: thats how you know 
a song that reminds me of summer: L.A. story
just an adorable song: the girl
a song by my favorite band: big bad world
an artist most people wouldn't think i listen to: grimes; oblivion california
a song(s) that explains my life: stressed out & human
a song that gives me a little bit of hope: first day of my life
a song that makes me cry: cry with you
a song from my favorite tv show: when the stars go blue
a song that I cannot stand listening to: happy
a song that I love to sing along to: wagon wheel
a song that someone has sung to me: my best friend
a song that I love but rarely listen to: the other side
my favorite country song: real life
a song on the soundtrack of my favorite movie: one
favorite song to run to (not sure why): modern jesus
a song that you have danced to with your best friend: roses 
a song i could listen to all day & not get tired of: river flows in you 
my favorite song right now: step 
a song that reminds me of someone I don't like: F U
my favorite song i've heard live: take a walk
my newest song: lost

i dont mind

i love deep talks. like, hell yeah, tell me about why you don't really like to tell your parents things 

tell me about the playlist you just made & how damn good it is 

tell me about the hard times you've had

tell me about the best times you've had

tell me about your fears, your bucket lists, & your plans for the future

tell me about your friends & your dogs

tell me about the things you think about right before you fall asleep