04.20.14

I'll never forget the phone calls. I'll never forget the pit in my stomach. & I'll never forget all the guilt & regret. 

Let me back up, 

Two weeks before prom & two days before spring break. I didn't wanna go, especially with someone I didn't know.

I'm sorry I didn't have a better attitude

When he built up the courage to ask me, I shot him down; a sophomore, my first dance, no money.

I'm sorry I didn't have a better attitude.

I only thought about it a couple times during spring break, 

I thought about it a little bit more when he didn't show up to class once that next week.

Saturday night, the night of prom I had a good time & it didn't cross my mind,

I got the call Sunday night & now it won't leave. 

I wish I had a better attitude but it was too late.

I could have stopped it, I could have helped, 

I wish I said yes, instead I said no.

_____, i think about you everyday

but I hope you're doing better up there than you were down here,

rest in peace and I'll see you soon.  ♡