forgotten

i've forgotten people, days,  places, moments

i've forgotten things that i would do anything to remember

like; the way it used to feel when you would hold my hand 

&  how it felt to wake up at 5am on christmas & have all the energy in the world 

or even the embarrassment I had when I had a phone with no camera but everyone else had a 4th generation iPhone 

& the thoughts i had on wednesday, but not thursday because I wrote them down. 

i don't remember your face when you said it, i just remember that feeling i got 

i've forgotten what it's like to have a 3rd grade crush because since then all i've had is a 5th grade crush

& i want to remember that day forever because i think how i felt that day was that feeling i used to get in my stomach when my 3rd grade crush liked me back 

& can i just say this blog post would be much more creative if i was in 1st grade, but maybe not, i just can't remember

i've forgotten and i just want to remember