Real Talk

Paris. it was fun while it lasted, but it didn't feel like my home, I felt like a tourist, & Nelson was my tour guide, but usually I would rather be on vacation then be at home anyway. Maybe I felt like a tourist because I was to scared to get up & read something. Maybe it was because i always posted Sunday night. Maybe because sometimes I slept in just because I didn't feel like pretending I was creative. But I had fun and I just wanna say thank you Paris, thank you Nelson & thank you everyone that did think of this as home, you made it enjoyable & you have inspired me to make an effort to find my Paris. 

I remember

I remember when my brother taught me the F word. He told me to say fluck without the L. I remember when me and my siblings covered ourselves from head to toe in marker. I remember the time Alex broke my wrist. I remember my first true best friend, and my second. I remember my first phone. I hated that thing. I remember when I finally held my handstand for 20 seconds and got 5$. I remember September 14th & April 20th. I remember the two times I've seen my dad cry. I remember our first kiss. I remember when no one could come between us, now everyone does. I remember camping in the two person tent, worst sleep I've ever gotten. I remember the box fort me and Becca Valletta made - we didn't come out for a week. I remember lake Powell. I remember when I got an email without my parents knowing and I was so scared. I remember the drive in movie. I remember when I caught my first fish. I remember when I got to go in a hot air balloon. I remember when you called me on my birthday, I cried, & the only two hugs you've ever given me, I cried. I remember the ugly fashion shows. I remember Hawaii, Michigan, Arkansas, Canada, Vegas, New Mexico and all the other trips I've been on this year. I remember making it to the top of Timp in my heelys, when i made my free throws to win the game, I remember the hellos and the goodbyes, I remember the day we really met for the first time, & then I remember yesterday.